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Now, for my late night thoughts...
OK, so there's a good chance you read this verse and thought, "What???" The writer, Paul, sounds totally confused and messed up...because he is... We all are. Check out this passage in the Message version at www.biblegateway.com.
We know what's right, and we try to do it, but we don't. We know what's wrong, and we try not to do it, but we do.
Can you relate to that at all? If so, let me put your mind at ease... you're normal. We all have a spiritual side that wants to live for God. The other side of us, called our "sin nature," only wants to live for our own personal pleasure. Here's the problem: temporary pleasure that comes from shallow things IS NOT the same as a sense of true satisfaction that comes when you're living for God... The temporary pleasure is empty and doesn't last, so you have to go look for more, and more, and more, and more... and before you know it, you're hooked. It's controlling you.
Maybe it's your desire for popularity, and you find temporary pleasure in being popular... but it takes work to stay popular, and before you know it, that desire is controlling you. You're making your decisions and basing your feelings on that desire. Maybe it's your desire to feel loved, and you look for satisfaction in a relationship with a guy/girl... but when that relationship doesn't work out, you move on to the next one and the next one. And you're so hooked on being in a relationship, that you don't know how to be single. It controls you.
But all the while, you're not totally bad. There's honestly a part of you that knows what is right and WANTS to do it. You've even TRIED to do it... really hard. So why is it that you just can't seem to win? Is there really any hope?
The last couple of verses tell us, without a doubt, YES. Because of Jesus Christ, we have hope. We need to get to a point where we say, "I can't do it on my own, because when I try I fail. I need to live a life surrendered to God, meaning all my decisions are surrendered to God, and trust that he won't fail me or steer me wrong."
For me, the first thing that comes to mind is a struggle with forgiving someone who really, really hurt me. I knew I needed to forgive this person, and I kinda-sort tried, for years! I really think I gave it the best shot I humanly could. But as much as I wanted to forgive them and even thought I forgave them, I let bitterness build up inside me. Unforgiveness leads to bitterness which is a poison that will eat away at you and affect all of your other relationships. Now, unforgiveness doesn't exactly sound like a typical pleasure that people get hooked on, but it totally is! There's something, in a "sin nature way" that makes it feel good to hold onto a grudge and not let go! The more time passes, the tighter you hold on. I got to a point where I said, "I don't get it. I know I need to let go of this, and yet there's a part of me that doesn't want to. What's wrong with me?" The problem is that I was trying to do it all on my own. I wasn't totally letting go of the hurt and totally surrendering it to God.
Tomorrow's reading will talk about how we break free from this cycle of wanting to do the right things but actually doing the wrong things. For today, think about this:
1. What is an area of your life where you know what's right and want to do it, but you still find yourself messing up?
2. When you've tried to do the right thing, what did that attempt look like?
Love you guys,
Pastor Courtney