Hey all,
It's been a little while since I have chimed in here, and I have to give PE serious credit for faithfully sharing his thoughts here! But I have missed writing :)
Here's a little insight into my life and my coping methods. When someone hurts me, it can be easier for me to cut them off and just pretend I don't really care about them.
"I'm a tough girl, and they don't matter enough to me to hurt me. I'm done with them."
Right? Wrong. Total denial. A little while ago, I wrote about a person I was having a hard time forgiving. Well, during that whole struggle, I read this book called, "The Bait of Satan." Whoa, the title sounds totally scary, but it's actually an amazing book about how we let offenses come between people in the church and destroy us. Anyway, the author made this one statement that I absolutely hated and denied. He said, "Only those you care about can hurt you."
I remember thinking, "That's not true! This person hurt me more than anyone in the whole world, and I don't care if I never speak to them again!" Now this author is telling me I really must still care about them? I didn't want to believe it - it made me feel so vulnerable and weak, you know what I mean?
That's what David is talking about in this Psalm. Just to give you a little background, David's whole life is turned upside down because a friend and mentor, named Saul, became jealous of him, turned on him, and tried killing him. Now, on TOP of that, one of his wisest and most trusted counselors, Ahithophel, has joined in a rebellion against him. In Psalm 55, David is crying out saying, "If one of my enemies did this to me, I could handle it. BUT YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE MY FRIEND! I thought I could trust you! I thought you cared about me!"
Have you ever been there? Have you ever had those kind of thoughts about someone? "Only those you care about can hurt you." Here's a thought: if you care about a person, then that relationship, or the memory or hope of that relationship, still has value to you. It might still be worth saving... or at least doing your part to try. Is there someone who has hurt you deeply that you have cut off? Is it possible you still care about them? Is it possible to restore the relationship? I'm not asking you to do anything just yet. Just think about it. It's okay to let your guard down and admit you care about the person who hurt you- it doesn't make you weak- it makes you real and honest.
Think about it.
Love you guys,
Pastor Courtney
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Hey Court,
Thanks for sharing your thoughts. That book sounds pretty cool, and I have really thought hard about the quote you stated from it. I agree 100% that the people who you really care about are the ones who hurt you, but I also believe that people who you aren't close with can also hurt you just as bad. That puts you in a tough situation because you can't just walk up to them and work things out when you barely even know them. I guess that's when you just have to release it to God and ask Him to help you deal with the situation, like PE's mesage Wednesday.
(that was me thinking outloud, because you told me I had to comment on yours haha)
Love you!
Reesie baby :)
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